My first

I am starting a blog. I am sure it's some years too late to be cool, considering that most of what I do technology wise is usually behind the times. I don't think I had my first DVD player until 2003. Actually, thinking back, I don't think I had my first CD player until 1997? So yup, I am a waiter, and I don't mean server. I wait. I won't get or do the next biggest technology item until it's proven to work right or the hype had dimmed down, with rare exceptions.
So, my blog. I know blogs started to be big some years ago. Some have taken to them, and some have ignored the concept completely. Me? I've thought about it from time to time, but I've not taken to the concept until now. 'Why now?' you ask. Well? That's a good question. Maybe it's that in the scramble of chaos that is life right now, I'm feeling more lonely. Maybe it's that I watched 'Julie and Julia' the other day, and it inspired me. Maybe I feel I need an outlet for my feelings. Oh wait! I think it's that I just don't have enough to do, and I need a time filler. (That last one was sarcasm.)
I am sure it's many reasons.
What is the purpose behind my blog? Well? Another great question. I am going to write about my life as a typical woman in today's USA. I was recently described by a friend as followed: Colleen, you are the oddest person I have ever met, and I don't think my life would be the same if I had never met you. On one hand, you're the most unique person I've met, but on the other hand, I don't know a single woman that can't relate with something about you and your life. So, we're drawn to you.
I started evaluating my life after hearing this. You know, I don't know if she's right, but I do see this: I am a single mother of two beautiful girls. I have made both great and horrid decisions in life and try desperately to learn from them. I have people that are close to me that make me happy and frustrate the heck out of me. I am trying to restart my life in a time when the economy isn't really conducive to this. Plus, on top of all of this? I am chasing my dream. I am writing.
In the 80's this would all have been MUCH easier. However, it's the end of 2009, and life is harder in the US. Yet, I am a person that has always known there is a way to do and get what I want if I truly wanted it and felt I deserved it. So, instead of staying where I wasn't happy, I am taking the dirt road and doing my best to come out the other side clean and still in one piece.
Right now, I am sitting on a stack of applications (literally, they're right under my behind. Something tells me it's my subconscious mind trying to throw a blow at them considering I don't truly want to work at any of those places.) I am looking for a job to support my girls on my own. Also, I am staring at the 2009 version of "The Writer's Market". My first book is finished, and I am working on the second while I am sending out query letters to publishers. You know, the whole chasing your dream thing. However, I, unlike many people these days, do believe that dreams can come true.
In closing. This is what I will be writing about. I aim to document the struggles I encounter while looking for a job in these times. How hard it is going from being a stay at home mom to a single mother. And going after my dreams at age 31. Yup, 31.
I guess what I see is good about the age thing is that's when you hear of people really doing it. You always hear 'so and so had been in a stuck life for so many years and at 30something, they just stumbled onto what is now making them happy and providing comfortable for their new life'.
In closing, I hope you enjoy reading this and either see it as a way to get to know me and stay informed about my life or as maybe a motivational item. I mean, it's easy to let life drag you down. Trust me, I am pretty optimistic about things by nature, but I have days that I don't want to get up. However, I usually drive right past that feeling into working harder to get what I want... usually.
Sure, many people say, 'don't post about your life online. It's no one else's business, and it just causes drama.' Well, then I say, don't read it. -And have a nice day.